Posted by kara lynne on August 13, 2003, at 12:22:56
In reply to re: another past life for us, posted by lil' jimi on August 13, 2003, at 10:21:06
Ah! Thank you for making clear the obvious. Of course that's what you might infer from the events--talk about top stressors. And it is still so fresh, really.
I don't quite understand the 6/9 months thing--does that mean grieving past 6 months makes you a candidate for meds? ( I can never get behind these time slots we're supposed to have for our emotions...) Well whatever the rationale it led you to something that works for you, and that's all that matters.
I don't think your fears are the slightest bit silly; I don't see how someone wouldn't have been impacted dramatically by the timing of those two things. I do think it's unfortunate though, that you have to be left with so much unresolved fear. Is there someone--a mentor, friend, fellow Buddhist that you could talk about this with?
"ever feel like you are supposed to be learning a lesson about something and the universe is screaming it at you but you don't get it?" May I say... everyday??
But I get this sense lil Jimi, and I wish I could articulate it better, that the meaning for you ultimately is a very positive one. That on the other side of this fear lies a joy in what the actual connection might mean. I hope I'm not overstepping-- please slap me if I am. I just think there is something very beautiful waiting for you, in another reflection of the mirror.
Thank you for indulging me my stress factors-- my misdocumented drama, my inadequate dx (that sounds so funny--even my diagnosis is inadequate!). I am off to...ta da...the ear doctor, so he can look at my lanced eustachian tube.
Thank you for writing.
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