Posted by Tabitha on August 5, 2003, at 12:29:18
In reply to Re: Yet another update... Guilt » Tabitha, posted by noa on August 1, 2003, at 11:46:57
Gaak! What have I done? I can't be unemployed! What was I thinking? I didn't even plan my budget, I still don't know how much the health ins. will cost, etc etc etc. I should have managed better. Why couldn't I balance my life while working? What do I think I can do while unemployed that I couldn't do while working? I'll have zero income! Gaak! I'll just watch my savings dwindle while sitting on my behind!
Aaaah... shut up!
Really, I'm OK. I started making my plan, my list of things to do, and it helped. I'll work out my budget and figure out how long I can remain unemployed.
Well y'all it's interesting. All this panic, but not enough to change my mind. Last work week (4 more days). Suddenly I'm hyperconscious of money, questioning every $10 expense. I don't know what my expenses will be... there's house payment, medical ins payment, taxes, car ins, therapy, and I suppose everything else I can economize. I'll have to cut down therapy. I successfully avoided a phone session this weekend due to thinking how much it would cost.
I'm thinking up money-making schemes involving ebay. And all the stuff I can sell, that I would normally just give to goodwill and tax deduct.
I'm questioning the whole home ownership thing. I feel I really haven't kept up with the maintenance. It needs painting, roofing, and landscaping. I kept thinking I'd catch up but never did. I will now, with all my time, if I can make myself spend the money, but maybe it's just too much for me to do alone.
I don't think I ever want to work fulltime again, but I'm afraid parttime jobs in my field are too difficult to find.
I want to get into frugality... more savings... less spending. A plan.
Just my rambling. But I don't think this zero-income thing is going to work for me. If I sit around for 6 months obsessing about money, well, that's not the point of my break.
Maybe I need to work on that list some more.
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