Posted by Penny on July 31, 2003, at 12:58:06
In reply to nothing, posted by yesac on July 30, 2003, at 10:53:35
And sorry for worrying everyone. I saw my pdoc last Thursday and ended up going straight from his office to the hospital. Just got home about 45 minutes ago. Not really feeling suicidal anymore, but a bit shaken up and very very anxious. My anxiety level increased ten-fold while I was there. Seeing my pdoc today at 4 and I'm taking my bag of meds to him so we can dispose of what I'm no longer taking and he can dole the rest out to me a week at a time.
As much as I am glad to be home, part of me is wishing I was still at the hospital, where at least I was shielded from some of the things that are stressing me. Already not feeling real stable right now, but stable enough to do what I have to do regarding taking my meds to my doc. If the meds aren't around, I won't have that temptation...
Anyway, I'll post more later. I had a message from work saying they wanted to know "if and when" I was going to return. My roommate told them that I was in the hospital and that she didn't know when I would be able to come back to work, which is what I asked her to tell them. I just called and left them a message that I will return on Tuesday. I have a sleep study scheduled for Sunday night/Monday so I'll be out of work on Monday. Really not looking forward to going back, and really really wishing some things could change regarding that situation. But, I think right now I can deal with it, with the help of my pdoc and therapist, and the social worker at the hospital gave me some numbers for some support groups in the area. Every little bit helps.
Thanks all for your concern. As I said, I'll post more later.
Love to all.
P
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