Posted by yesac on July 23, 2003, at 11:10:56
In reply to Re: sigh, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2003, at 22:06:31
Yes! Lately I just keep thinking "god, I am so depressed!" I have imagined going in to my therapists office and saying "I am just so depressed" which isn't something that I usually really come out and say. And "I am so tired of this life, so tired of struggling every single day..." How to go on? I just don't know how much more I can take. I'm not sure if I can do it anymore.
And like Dinah said, I too feel so guilty about being ungrateful for what I have. I feel like I just let myself wallow in self-pity, and I don't deserve to feel like my life sucks when there are people who have "real" problems. I mean, I'm smart, I have a job that I basically like (not that I get such great pay, but it's better than nothing), I have a degree from a good school and got good grades, I'm driven (but at the same time I have motivation issues), I have a family that loves me.... But I'm just not very grateful about any of it. Instead, I am always thinking about how it's not fair about what I don't have. Always thinking about my misery, and jealous of those for whom life seems to be just wonderful.
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