Posted by Penny on July 18, 2003, at 12:25:34
In reply to TGIF, posted by Penny on July 18, 2003, at 10:15:19
I emailed my roommate about my office being moved and I said that it could be both a good thing and a bad thing in that it could (and hopefully will) motivate me more and improve my work but that if not I might be looking for a new job. Here's her reply:
and as far as you looking for another job, unfortunately, with what you are feeling as far as not focusing, no motivation,
etc, you are going to face that at any job- whether that one or a new one... if you can find a new one.
Uh....how helpful is THAT??????? It really bugs me that she always has to remind me of the negatives, as if I don't already have them swimming around in my head all the time anyway. It's why I don't want to tell her anything. When she says things like that, it just sticks in my head and makes me more and more upset.At the same time, I'm afraid (yes, afraid) of responding b/c of the reaction I get. What I would like to say: "It's really not helpful to me when you respond this way. I realize that if I lose my job it will be difficult to find another one. This is one reason that being depressed is so hard for me to deal with. And I am TRYING to do my job, but my best might not be good enough."
What I will say: nothing at all.
I can't deal with her getting angry with me. So, I hold it all in.
I feel trapped. Caged in, with no way out. Well, only one way out, but I'm not ready to go there yet.
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