Posted by kara lynne on July 16, 2003, at 2:09:20
In reply to Re: Therapist/ Friend update-kara » lostsailor, posted by gabbix2 on July 15, 2003, at 21:41:09
How could he not care? How can he just forget about me? How could he not want me back? How long was he with me hating me? I can't sleep, I can't do anything, I can't think of anything else but him.
I'm shattered to know he didn't love me. That his "aesthetic" meant more to him than me.
I read his horoscope. Bad idea. It says, "Friendship, attraction and home decoration. It might sound trivial, but while (blah blah blah) --aesthetics and ideals willl matter more than you think they would. Because artistic, affable Venus favors Mars, chances are you'll fall in love with something, someone or a bunch of talented someones. Connecting to a group...is an experience worth looking forward to this week. You could also find yourself suddenly smitten by a new addition to the neighborhood."
He just moved into a new neighborhood. He said that by being with me he had to deny his "aesthetic" (violent, "brilliant" art), and he could no longer do that.
I know I'm being stupid now, reading the horoscope and all, but it's late and I'm most vulnerable now and in the early morning.
I can't stand it here and I can't move out until the 1st. This will be a long two weeks.
How could an aesthtic be more important than I am? He even gets validation in the newspaper. He gets articles written about him in the newspaper.
And I sit at home sucking royally.
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