Posted by Penny on July 10, 2003, at 12:31:24
In reply to Re: infuriated and in tears - Penny, posted by yesac on July 9, 2003, at 20:10:44
I am just so frustrated. I didn't respond to her last message to me regarding what she said to me, I just let it go. I try to just let it go all the time. Doesn't do any good to bring it back up.
So, for the rest of the day yesterday and last night and this morning, I just acted as though everything was fine. I am used to being criticized by others, and I guess I am critical of others too, so perhaps I deserve it. I don't intend to be that way. I don't intend to act like I'm 'better' than other people, because, as you said, I certainly don't feel that way. I think a lot of it has to do with always being told I should think/feel a certain way and trying to assert myself and my own beliefs, but it not coming across that way.
So, I suppose I always say the wrong things at the wrong times. And, I suspect I know what people on this board will say to this, but it's just one more piece of evidence that the world would be better off without me.
And, of course, in my family that would be called 'feeling sorry for myself' and 'being selfish'. Maybe so. Who cares, as long as they don't have to listen to me anymore. Then they won't have anything to complain/get upset about.
P
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