Posted by Dinah on June 13, 2003, at 12:06:44
In reply to Re: Slipping and sliding » Dinah, posted by judy1 on June 13, 2003, at 11:38:46
Hi Judy,
There are some general stressors. My diabetes diagnosis and some severe monetary problems. Or rather, I've been having severe monetary problems caused by overspending sprees and finally decided to take control by consolidating the debt into a regular loan and tearing up the credit cards. That puts me on a pretty strict budget. And I'm not good at being good about money.
But usually strong self injury urges in me are triggered by rage or anger, and I'm not aware of feeling rage before getting the urges. And I'm also feeling those familiar feelings that my family would be better off without me. It's been a while for those.
It's really interesting to me that you could see this in my posts lately. My husband keeps asking me (several times a day actually) if I'm ok. It must be more noticeable than I thought. I don't *think* I feel the increasing brittleness that precedes a meltdown. I'll keep an eye on myself.
I'm off to see my therapist. That's the good thing I do for myself.
Thanks Judy.
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