Posted by kara lynne on May 31, 2003, at 22:24:16
In reply to Re: Lips moving, nothing coming out..., posted by kalyb on May 30, 2003, at 13:52:02
Thanks for responding, it really means a lot to me right now. And thank you also for telling me about your dream--I have been absolutely haunted by mine. I don't know why I keep revolving back to this old relationship in my mind--it wasn't a good one. But somehow I am obsessed anew, how charming.
How utterly self destructive is it to mull around in my mind day and night that he is now married with a perfect little boy, and a brand new baby girl--in the right order and everything. Just like we were going to do. And instead I am unmarried, insufficiently medicated and barren (sorry Gabbix). And this is what I spend my days thinking about. No wonder I want to sleep! But now my demons are chasing me there too.
When I was a little girl I had so many nightmares that I made my parents come in before I went to sleep every night and say, "No dreams at all"...instead of the requisite "Sweet dreams". I was so terrified of dreaming. Eventually I started to become aware of when I was having a nightmare and be able to wake myself up.
Can't do that anymore, but I'll definitely report it to the doctor the next time I see him. Thanks again Kaly, and for letting me ramble.
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