Posted by kalyb on May 25, 2003, at 19:14:38
In reply to be gentle with me- is this my ocd?, posted by babs on May 25, 2003, at 18:28:33
Hey babs,
I don't know if I can say anything to make you feel better, but I'd sure love to be able to.
I know exactly what you mean about the thinking and worrying, I was the same only a few weeks ago until I started my meds (Effexor). Then everything quietened down, and I started to feel much more relaxed. I get that unbreakable cycle of anxious thoughts too, a lot, always have done, and they do drive me crazy. I don't know if it's OCD or not. I just know how much it hurts not to be able to switch it off.
A good friend once said to me: "It's not good to think too much" and sometimes other friends who have seen me in my stuck thought patterns say something similar. I know that with or without meds, time heals and soothes the panic of the thoughts.
So babs, if you possibly can, don't think too much :) Maybe see if you can find a relaxation technique... or, because you're going through so much stress right now, have a word with your doctor about increasing your meds perhaps? Just a suggestion.... a thought, from someone who knows what it's like. I think when all is calm again, you will be more in touch with your self.
Kalyb xx
> I'm in a bad state right now. My mom died six weeks ago and I can't stop doubting that I really love my boyfriend. Over and over again, I keep looking for signs that I don't really love him or that I can't marry him. The thoughts are causing me a lot of anxiety and they don't make sense because we were so close while my mom was sick and dying. It's so bad that when I try to look into my heart to see how I really feel I can't shut out all the noise my brain is making. I'm on the verge of tears all the time because these thoughts are really hurtful but I can't stop ruminating.
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> I'm on meds for OCD (low dose risperdal and celexa) and an increase in obsessions has always been a warning sign that a depression is coming. Are my meds not working? Does this sound like OCD to you?
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> I'm starting to pay attention to them and am wondering if maybe it's a sign we're not right for each other but he's the person I love best in the world. But if I really loved him why would I be having these horrible thoughts. It's so bad that I'm not even thinking about the fact that my mom died- all I can do is think about whether or not I "really" love him.
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> I'm having a really hard time so gentle responses only please.
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