Posted by leeran on April 16, 2003, at 0:04:35
In reply to Re: futures (my response = too long) » leeran, posted by Dinah on April 15, 2003, at 19:25:53
Dinah,
My mouth is hanging open (and no, I'm not going to puke).
"I became almost agoraphobic over the fear that wherever I was, someone might throw up."
I'VE LIVED A GOOD PORTION OF MY LIFE THIS WAY! ROCK CONCERTS, LARGE FUNCTIONS, YOU NAME IT.
"developing finely tuned radar for sick people"
YES, I DEVELOPED IT - AND STILL HAVE IT I'M SAD TO SAY. IN MANY WAYS THIS PHOBIA HAS DOMINATED A BIG PORTION OF MY LIFE. I HAD LIVING PROOF OF THIS JUST ABOUT A MONTH AGO . . . THE RADAR PART. SORRY FOR ALL CAPS, I'M NOT YELLING (WELL, MAYBE :-) BUT ONLY BECAUSE I'M EXCITED IN A COMRADELY KIND OF WAY. The caps seemed easier to differentiate your comments from mine, but I'll go lower case from here on out.
I have a friend who has the same phobia. She calls herself a "barf-a-phobe" and she has struggled with agoraphobia as well. Every time I tell her I'm on a new medication (not for that) she tells me I need to go spend $70,000 and 15 years on/in therapy (note - even after all that she has not fully given up her barf-a-phobic tendencies, not that there's anything wrong with that - but just thought it was something to note since we're discussing the subject of letting go of this phobia).
Dinah, my first (maybe second) post on these boards was to you because something you said about your mother gave me a big "yeah, RIGHT, I know exactly what you MEAN" feeling.
Here's the question (why am I afraid to ask?). Did you ever outgrow your phobia? I definitely have not. It comes and goes. Sometimes it's much worse than others.
You know, even the topic is difficult for me to discuss - is it for you?
This is now the second big epiphany I've had on this board!
Where the heck have you people been all my life??? :)
poster:leeran
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