Posted by Ginjoint on April 7, 2003, at 22:26:11
I'm was adopted at the age of 4 months, and I recently located my biological family. I found that my biological mother died from cancer a year and a half ago - she was only 55. I'm still working on getting the identity of my father, but I have been told he died in an auto accident.
All this searching. All these primal feelings stirred up so much.
I first reached my mother's fraternal twin sister, who was very happy to hear from me....I have a fantastic bio family with fascinating lives (they are quite wealthy). I have two other aunts and another uncle. My mother and grandfather's ashes are scattered at a nearby botanic garden, and I went there this past week.
I feel neglectful in not posting much this past week...Libby, bozeman, Tabitha, jyl, Dinah, et. al., please forgive my lack of posts but this has kind of taken over everything, but things are calming down now.
It's been like a roller coaster. My bio mother had breast cancer, so now I have to get a mammogram, and I had an uncle who died of melanoma. Very scary. I cry for my mom so much. Do you know she hid her pregnancy from her family and actually drove herself to the hospital when she was in active labor? It was a loooong drive too. She must have been so scared, and alone.
I know this post is disjointed, and I'm sorry...I've taken several tabs of Ativan to just sleep through. I do hope I get to meet my grandmother. She's 89 and quite the character. Yet, the fear of rejection hangs over me...all I want is a family.
Too sleepy to type much more,
Ginjoint
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