Posted by Dinah on March 22, 2003, at 12:24:02
In reply to Re: self-injury/suicide only options??, posted by noa on March 22, 2003, at 10:54:37
I don't know, Noa.
Certainly I want to stay employed and be a good wife and mom. And I don't like what I was before I decided to act as if I was ok. It didn't do me any good, and my life was better after I learned to act "as if". And I'm not terribly happy that my mask has started to slip too much at work. I don't like feeling out of control.
I guess I just still have some resentment that concern for me at the time mainly had to do with having me conform to expectations, and that once I did so everything was considered ok, when I knew full well it wasn't ok. No real effort was made to address my feelings except to the extent that they affected my actions.
Part of me agrees with that, part of me hates it. It sets up that whole "Richard Corey" sort of dynamic.
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