Posted by gabbix2 on March 16, 2003, at 15:53:16
In reply to Gabbi, Gabbi!!, posted by Dinah on March 16, 2003, at 15:14:42
I was just going to send you an e-mail,
but I stopped in here first.
Oh Dinah. It reminds me of that movie "cocoon"
when people awakened from their coma's, except this was a nightmare. And so many times I thought I was 'better' I wasn't. Seeing how relatively easy things are now that I'm feeling this way, I'm actually quite surprised I accomplished anything at all before. I also realize why some people would put up with weight gain. Before I never thought it was worth it, but thats because I wasn't really that much improved.
The best thing is with the Zyprexa I don't feel blunted at all. Its just that when I think about past losses, I get melancholy instead of gut wrenching grief, and I get sweaty palms instead of feeling terror.Now. If there were only a way to actually convey
that to people who are depressed, on this board especially. I mean really get it through. You aren't a loser, or lazy or
meant for failure, you are bearing a burden which is unfathomable to most. And there is hope. And then when you are better, and its obvious to everyone around you that it really was a disease
you can go NYAH!!! (okay maybe that only appeals to me)I know I didn't believe anyone when they told me that. Thanks for going into hell with me Dinah, and not letting me forget that "spirits are resilient things"
I think you are an (Oh I'll save that for a letter
I know you get embarassed)Hope hope hope.
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