Posted by sienna on March 15, 2003, at 21:41:41
circles
circles
circles
everythign just goes aroudn in circles
what is normal anyway. how come i see eveyrone is beautiful in there dirfferences and similarities and i see the world as this beautiful awesome terrifyuing dreamworld. i want to cry but im laughing but the tears are all buried underneath want to cut myself but also want to take a bubblebath i am worthless but somehow still have some. i dont understand. does this get better or worse or just go in circles.i cant breathe. theres a elephant on my chest im hungry but i cant eat. bad horrible terrible complainer lazy shameful bad bad bad. why cant i make it stop i dont even feel real i feel like everythign is blurry and nothing is real and i would cut to feeel real and see that im real but its bad and then im just bad bad bad again.
i want someone to hold me underwater for a long time then let me up so i know what it feels like to breathe. my pdoc says more risperdal but i dont know is always more somethign more more more then side effects then switch meds then more more more thren another circle. i think he hates me.
poster:sienna
thread:209534
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