Posted by jay on March 14, 2003, at 23:52:03
Owww..man. She's sadly got my genes in this mess. The damn Effexor too...it creates both a horrid apathy and a bit of 'cycling' of emotions. (No she isn't BP, and yes depressives CAN cycle.) Thankfully she only took 10 Lorazepam, and her Dad got her to the ER at 4:30 am yesterday morning, got the Char, stomach pump, etc. This was her second time. Her f***ing doctor kept her on Effexor *only*, which does JACK Sh*T in my opinion. So, I drove up and we talked and talked and talked and talked and cried and cried and talked and talked. What triggered it was she was talking to one of her friends late last night, and canceled on them going out, and that really hurt my dear nieces fellings, and sent her over the edge, as she has been ON the edge, not getting proper effect from Effexor. (She has been on it for a year...) So I arranged for her to get into a psychopharmacologist at Clarke/University Of Toronto. I helped her Mom (my sister) and Dad with finding an excellent therapist also, so I hope this all goes through quick, and it should.It also made me realize I GOT to get myself straigtened out. I got to get my doctor to refer me to a psychopahrm, who he said he will, but I have been so apathetic, I let it all slide.
So..my dear Niece and I shall OVERCOME, as we say. I told her if she killed herself, her parents, me, her grandparents, her brothers, lives would be wrecked beyond repair, and she mind as well take us all with her. I would see no point in life..no point in life period if she did it. I saw my best friend at 18, who blew his brains out and I found him, and that nearly killed me, and his Dad died 6 years later by O.D.'ing, 4 brothers have all tried to kill themselves. I KNOW if she did it..I WOULD do it. No question.
Anyhow..okay just ramble...sorry....
Jay
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