Posted by Dinah on March 8, 2003, at 13:02:32
In reply to Re: Not that I'm going to do it, so I guess it's moot » Dinah, posted by noa on March 8, 2003, at 11:34:48
It's moot for two reasons.
First, the pay is good and so are the medical benefits. I need the pay because I'm profligate. I need the medical benefits mainly because of my job. :P
I'm not at all sure that I can find a job with as good pay. I'm not even sure I can find a job at all. I've never interviewed in my life, and I don't make a particularly good impression, I think.
Second, I'm way more afraid of change than I am of death. I think I'm also more afraid of doing this. Going from deadline to deadline with crashes in between. I just don't know how much longer I can make the deadlines or take the crashes.
That's why it's moot. I guess I'll keep on trying to make the deadlines till I fail or snap. And failing isn't too far away, judging from the overall direction I'm heading. And I probably will snap when I fail. I won't kill myself over this because it would be terribly unkind to do that to my family, no matter what sort of a wife or mother I think I am.
I was just musing, I guess, on what a sane person would do.
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