Posted by Emme on February 26, 2003, at 6:42:26
In reply to Re: bad day starting, posted by lostsailor on February 25, 2003, at 10:53:26
> I know that same feeling well enough.
I wish we could put all of the people having bad mornings together when we wake up to have tea and donuts and give each other some company.
> While reading your post I realized that despite your turmoil, you still have people that you care enough for to get your affairs in order.Aah, it's all guilt and a dedication to duty and tying up loose ends.
> Maybe you can turn to them for a bit of support. Just a guess...
Well, it's not that they don't care at *all*. Dad cares but he doesn't always know how to respond. Mom finding out about the mood disorder would be the end of life as I know it. She is overly worried and anxious all th time as it is and she exhausts me. She smother me, try to get me to not take medicine, and would never be able to treat me as a normal human again. One brother & sister in law are aware. Even though they're sympathetic, they wouldn't take the time to call and check on me in good times or bad. I do all the calling. The other brother I don't trust with such info. So...I'm kind of on my own as far as the family goes.
> I don't know if this helps but I know that when I feel that blue, I try to focus on the others that would be effected by my actions and the feeling subsides.I know that that should be a good plan. I guess I feel that they would be appropriately sad and ultimately move on. Especially my brothers - they like me but would not really notice my absence.
> Let us know how it's going.It's another day and I'm going to try to force myself to get a certain amount of work done.
Thanks for your support,
Emme
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