Posted by bluedog on February 13, 2003, at 9:31:17
Why do my family gatherings ALWAYS degenerate into screaming matches when the subject of my mental illness comes up.
My Parents totally, completely, utterly, fully, wholly, absolutely, entirely and unqualifiedly REFUSE to accept the FACT that I suffer from social anxiety. They tell me this is just a wacky label that my PDoc puts on me so he can make lots of money off me. They want to have a talk to my Pdoc so they can set him straight and tell him the truth about me and to tell him that they know me a lot longer than he has.
I can scream at them till I'm blue in the face and my voice cracks up trying to explain my symptoms to them. I can provide them with the best literature about this condition written by the most knowledgeable researchers on the subject. They still don't believe me!!!!!!!!
They say because they've know me all my life they would KNOW if I was suffering from social anxiety. AFTER all they saw me talking to a girl at a family function once and everyone tells them what a "nice" person I am. And nice people definitely can't suffer from social anxiety. "Besides" they say "they've never even heard of this thing called social anxiety and there is no way that any son of theirs would suffer from such a strange disease even if such an illness DID actually exist"
In fact I'm just like everybody else. I'm completely NORMAL. After all EVERYBODY sometimes gets a little nervous when they meet someone new or take on a new experience.
Aaaahh, so that must be why I'm still single and lonely at 33 years of age.
They barely even accept the fact that I suffer from depression but that's only because they once heard that this disease might even exist. However I really should just exercise a little more willpower to get out of bed in the mornings.
I nearly killed myself when I stormed out of my parents house tonight because I was so angry that I drove 180kph all the way home along the back streets in complete frustration.
whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhwywhywhy!!!!!!!!!
bluedog
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