Posted by jay on January 17, 2003, at 7:16:52
In reply to lost's lost, posted by lostsailor on January 16, 2003, at 23:23:44
You are NO hypocrite, LS. You need help with the 'bigger picture', that's all. In fact, that's what most of us on here need. I see it as somehow, putting together all of the complicated things (between therapy, medications, and general daily living), and trying to come out with a life that is both bearable and enjoyable.Most of us seem to have lost out on the ability to feel consistent pleasure. (By this, I don't mean a life of 'bliss', but of having a few things happen in the day that really make us happy inside.) I honestly think a lot of it has to do with being in very bad economic times, and stress seems to be up 100's of times over. Add in unemployment, and genral societal 'fear', and I think we are living in times similar to the 'Great Depression'.
I have found something that helps, though (for me, anyhow...but I think it might for others who are feeling 'stuck' after long periods of 'treatment'.) Try to get out into public, at least in very 'tiny' steps. Even if it means just going to the store. Don't overwhelm yourself. When you have at least just *ONE* positive moment, keep track of it, and *don't* let it go from your mind.
I am rebuilding myself from every positive moment I can find, and the rest I just (or *try, anyways..) to forget. Yes I am medicated and in therapy,(and have been for many, many years) and it all *still* feels pretty nasty. I must also suggest, especially for those who have suffered from most psychiatric problems for a *long* time, getting and reading the book "Noonday Demon" . It's not just about insight, it's about combining every part of your treatment and making it work for you.
How and when it *will* all work is another question. But, connecting and rebuilding yourself (using who you where as a person too..because that is important also..), even if you do it over and over, I think is part of the answer..even if only for a few brief moments a day.
Other times...try and get away from looking too deep..and just try to soak up what you can from your environment. If you find *any* happiness whatsoever, do the same thing over, and over, and over again..(as long as it is not self-destructive, or hurts others.)
I don't know if any of that makes sense...as it *barely* does to me. A LOT of reading has helped me, though, and I think it may/has helped others. So, as I suggested, try the book I mentioned above.
I hope there is something in this that helps, even just a bit. If you can, also, I find a bit of faith in compassion (for others and myself) helps. Best wishes, and thoughts are with you.
Jay
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