Posted by Peter S. on December 20, 2002, at 13:02:46
In reply to embarrassed to start yet another thread, posted by Tabitha on December 20, 2002, at 4:55:45
Hey Tabitha,
You'd probably have to type day and night to fill up Dr. Bob's server so don't worry about that. I enjoyed your scream- very creative- much better than just a simple AAAGH!
But seriously it sounds like a really lousy situation. Taking 2 weeks off sounds like a godsend right now. Decompressing and relaxing seems like the best thing to focus on right now and not thinking about work at all.
I wish I could work so I could take 2 weeks off of work myself..
Take care of yourself- that's the key!
Best,
Peter
> but my need to vent is apparently endless today.
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> i'm just full of rage and resentment over stuff that's happened at work lately. i'm having constant fantasies of telling off my boss, and her boss, and a few other people. and walking out in the middle of the day, never to return to that job. it's been like the chinese water torture, drip drip drip, . my workload has increased, and the amount of control & authority i have has decreased. recipe for burnout. the latest thing is, i was hoping my team would grow, one because i'm overworked, and two i was looking forward to building a team, but instead of hiring they want to use temps in a job-shop in a 3rd world country, and i'm supposed to manage them over the phone. the 3rd world temps cost 1/3 the typical salary of a U.S. worker (and that's total cost to us, so i'm sure they actually work for a fraction of that.) yet they tell me it's not cost that's driving it, it's only so they won't have to hire and fire (they've already laid off 2/3 of the company and moved into an ultra-crappy building to cut costs). well, hello!, there are a b'jillion laid off workers locally in my field right now who i'm sure would be willing to work on a contract basis, so that's obviously a pure lie. do they have to f-ing lie to me, and themselves? can't anyone say, yes, we know this is horrible, but we're desperate. i can't imagine anything i'd less like to do than manage these hi-tech sweatshop employees over the phone all day long.
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> there are so many more gripes. they've been coming so fast lately, it's comical. i must be distorting. surely i'm distorting? is it a mood thing, or holiday stress, or is it really this bad? i have 2 weeks off after tomorrow, thank god. i didn't even make plans for christmas, as all i can imagine is getting some much-needed down time. did i already post this? i can't remember.
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> but after the break, it will still be there.
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> here they go, the what-ifs. what-if it's not just this company, it's my whole profession, so there aren't any options? what if i do get pissed and quit and spiral into a long period of depression and unemployment where i can't afford meds and therapy. what if i watch my money run low, then end up in a worse job than this one? what if my profession is just obsolete, and in 10 years it will all be done by hi-tech sweatshops, just like the migration of manufacturing jobs that devastated those a notch lower on the educational ladder? what if i fill up dr bob's server with my ranting and it still isn't better? what if i have an attack of remorse on christmas for not making plans? what if that pain in my tooth is serious? what if i get cancer and die alone because i don't have a social life because i'm such a stress case no-life burnout? what if it never gets better? what if it gets worse? i already can't take it and it still keeps getting worse. it could get worse. what if my arms fall off from the typing injury that i only exacerbate with this dang laptop keyboard? and finally... what if all the babblers reject me because i post too much lately?
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> now it's time for some screaming... AAAAAAHHHHRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!! EEEEEYYYOOOOWWWWWZZAAANOOOOOONOOOONOOO!!!! WWWAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!
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> and moaning....
> woooooooooeeeeee mooooooaaaannnnn whimper whimper whimper
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> now it's time to take a pill.
poster:Peter S.
thread:33673
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20021218/msgs/33698.html