Posted by Miller on December 20, 2002, at 6:44:23
In reply to Re: I get urges sometimes... » Dinah, posted by dreamerz on December 20, 2002, at 6:32:24
I almost laughed out loud with your post. Not because I am humored with your pain. Just the opposite. I was thinking: "I am the LAST person to be reading this post and to consider answering!"
After the fiasco with Tina I would have no idea what is appropriate for this forum. I do, however, know the doubts and fears associated with isolation of oneself in pain. I have isolated myself pretty well the last couple of years. Now I am paying the price. I am angry that I can't honestly talk about my feelings and angry that I have the feelings. I don't think there is a forum that supports such violent (lack of better word) thoughts.
It is exhausting to have to carefully think through your thoughts in order to write/talk without offending. So, a person decides to either expend the energy, or keep it all inside. Either way, I think an explosion is inevitable.
The good news is that your therapist has made a commitment to you to help if needed. The better news is that you have promised to honor that commitment. I think that is awesome. I think your actual outlet is your therapist. After what happened to me, I am afraid to open my mouth to anybody. If I don't totally offend people, I will end up with my rights taken from me.
Talk about ranting...
Sorry if this post is more annoying than helpful. I think you are frustrated with having only one outlet. Because it is a therapist, it is a little restricted in the accessability. But, you seem to be very honest with yourself. Being honest gives you strength.
Take the strength to either create another outlet or use the strength to accept the out let you have. That's my opinion. I hope it isn't offensive.
-Miller
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