Posted by Tabitha on November 23, 2002, at 6:03:13
I was all prepared to spend the 4-day holiday alone. I thought I'd do a little healthy habits retreat, you know, eat right, exercise, and meditate every day. Then I got a last-minute invitation from a friend who's friend has a great house and is cooking a turkey feast. I can't decide which to do. My solitary day might end up being miserable and sluggish, or my social day might end up being draining and unsatisfying, plus it's almost an hour drive to their place.
The thing with me and socializing is I never know what kind of mood I'll be in. Sometimes I need to be alone, and sometimes I need to be around people, and it seems to have a schedule of its own that doesn't match the actual opportunities. So sometimes I think I'm in the mood to be around people so I go out and it flops, and sometimes I think I'm in the mood to be alone, but that flops.
I'm alone so much, and feel socially deprived so much, but then something like this comes up and I feel like it's threatening my solitude.
Other people don't seem to have this dilemma. I feel either lucky that I'm often happy with my own company, or freakish that I can't do simple socializing.
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