Posted by IsoM on November 17, 2002, at 1:58:02
In reply to In Memoriam, posted by tina on November 16, 2002, at 18:50:38
Tina, you're amazing. To have lost a friend & gained such insight is special. I'm sorry for your loss - & yes, it is strange to feel more connected with her now, but that may have more to do with the place you've reached in your mind & heart than her being gone. I'm glad you had time with her alone by her grave to reach your understanding. What you wrote is beautiful & somehow calming.
I'm really proud of you that you've decided that your life will not end like hers. Not that she copped out. I've lost a friend to suicide & she died in a very horrible way. I can't begin to imagine the depth of her pain to take her life in the manner she did. With your friend & with mine, Michelle, both have thankfully found peace now.
What you wrote about your determination is a lot like what my youngest (almost 21) said to me. He'd been suicidal, off & on, for a few years & was hospitalised because of that for a while. But he said essentially the same as you said. It gave me strength & made me proud of his determination.
And in the same way, though I do not know you well, I'm very proud of you. Peace.
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