Posted by Dinah on October 13, 2002, at 15:25:45
In reply to Re: I need a goal., posted by Tabßitha on October 13, 2002, at 15:08:13
Well, that's one of the problems. I want to do something that will help people. Something really meaningful that will make me feel good when I go to bed each night. Unfortunately, I'm terrible with people skills. And being around people overstimulates me terribly.
Plus I can barely keep up with my current obligations. Of course, that may be because I really really hate my job.
I do get stuck going round and round over this. My therapist is not particularly useful because as he's gotten to know me better, he thinks my job is perfect for me and my talents and weaknesses. So he's rather halfhearted about supporting my attempts to chew my way out of this cage.
Do you ever feel like one of those poor animals at the zoo? The ones that pace back and forth and make little ruts in their enclosures? Walk as far as you can go, lift your head with that little twist and turn in the other direction. And maybe they're better off in there. No hunter is going to shoot them for their pelts. No predator will get them. They don't have to worry about disappearing habitats or lack of food. If they ever were given freedom they'd probably never make it. But still the pacing and the glazed look.
Maybe my goal ought to be to try to grow to love my enclosure.
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