Posted by shar on August 18, 2002, at 12:31:52
In reply to Re: Jumping off the wagon » fiona, posted by .tabitha. on August 17, 2002, at 15:14:09
I was wondering recently, because of the failure of my meds to make much of a change, if it wouldn't be just as good to go back to drinking as a way of coping and self-medicating.
Plus, I get really uninhibited and have FUN, a rare event these days.
Plus, it is a LOT cheaper than meds.
So, I understand the desire to do it and to want to do it again. The reason I stay sober is mainly that I can get into dangerous territory if my depression is too strong, and one of the inhibitions it relaxes is the one against suicide. I guess that's about the only reason nowadays, seems like I used to have a lot more.
I used to believe that my life while drinking was out of control, but after 14 or so years of being sober, I realize control is an illusion anyway.
Shar
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