Posted by BeArDedLADY on August 15, 2002, at 18:24:18
In reply to Hi all, posted by Greg A. on August 15, 2002, at 17:46:07
Hi, Greg. I want to say happy birthday to you, and I really do mean it. That's my wish for you. I sort of know where you are, have been there a bit, know others who've been there a lot. It's not a nice place, but it's not a permanent place, either.
You are tired of changing your meds, and I can understand that. But aren't you more tired of living the way you are? ADs don't work too well if you're adding alcohol to the mix, you know, so you really have to cut that out. How about a birthday drink and then a new start?
It sounds like you probably love your wife but are too low to even say it. And you love your daughters, too. Please, let me assure you, there isn't a time that your daughters won't need you. In fact, as a daughter, I can attest to the fact that I need my dad more at forty than I needed him when I was a teenager. I'd be torn apart if I lost my dad now. And most girls feel that way when they are adults.
It's silly for me to tell you what you have to do--that you have to find what interests you now (not drinking) and concentrate on it, that you have to exercise to blow off steam, that you have to really talk to your wife before she does leave you and you find you don't have anything left to lose. I can tell you those things, but only you can put the motivation in you.
Can you see any of those good times? Can you feel how you felt? Do you want that again? If you can, treat yourself to a fresh doctor, a fresh start, and see if you can get a doctor who understands what you need. I went through two pdocs. My third said, "That's not what you need; you need this." And he tried me on something that worked for a month. Then he went for something similar but more powerful, and I've been great for three years.
It can happen.
And as much as cycling doesn't interest you now is as much as you need it. Ride fast. Ride hard. Get that adrenaline pumping and those endorphins working. Some stuff you CAN do on your own. Enhance your mood with a complex B vitamin and a multi. Those things are easy.
Make yourself feel better. Your life depends on it. And your daughters will depend on you. So be there.
Do you like cake, Greg? My daughter's middle name was going to be Cake because I spent my entire pregnancy eating white sheet cake. Get yourself a cake and some funny looking candles. Eat it by yourself or with your daughters and wife. Resolve to find your friends again.
Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. Greet it with a new resolve. We want to see you wearing that watch after the retirement party.
beardy
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