Posted by Sourceror on April 22, 2002, at 19:13:41
The pain goes on day after day
All I want is for it to end
Please find a way
I am being defeated
I want to give up and turn myself in
Maybe things would be better in the after life
Why must I go on
I search for answers and yet find none
I just want to give up
I keep typing in hopes to get it out
It doesn't seem to be working
Will I find happiness again??
I am doubtful in this quest.
Things seem to be caving in.
I hate to talk about it. I just want to hide.
I can't go back to the hospital again.
I hate that place.
I would rather go all the way than go back there.
I don't know how much longer I can hold out
My strength grows weaker by the moment.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I pray for the strength to end it
I pray for a way past it
I think these two prayers are fighting for attention and neither are being answered.
I just feel so weak under this weight I must bear
Is this my destiny??
Am I doomed with this life of pain???
It sucks the whole time I am writing this I am just thinking about those pills and wanting to take them.
Why am I having to bear this pain??
Why couldn't it be given to someone who could handle it.
Well I am stuck with it and now I guess I have to see how things turn out.
Sorry to drop a post like this on ya all especially since it's been so long since I have posted, but I needed to vent.
poster:Sourceror
thread:22444
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