I get so tired sometimes

Posted by DinahM on April 20, 2002, at 17:38:18

Tired of trying so hard to be a good girl. Tired of failing. Tired of trying to fulfill my obligations and falling short. Tired of worrying about disaster striking. Tired of worrying about being abandoned. Knowing that I don't have to be abandoned to be alone. I am always fundamentally alone anyway. Alone to deal with myself, a task I feel unable to cope with.
Discouraged at the return of the gruesome, but highly improbable, images of self injury. Sad, oh so sad. And knowing that in a few days I'll feel less sad and knowing that the sadness will return, just as the anxiety returns, just as the happiness returns.
Knowing that reaching out here won't touch the aloneness. Because I'm alone IN HERE, trapped in my mind.
And so tired.

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I get so tired sometimes DinahM 4/20/02
Feeling better already. DinahM 4/20/02
Re: Feeling better already. » DinahM paxvox2000 4/20/02
Re: Feeling better already. » paxvox2000 DinahM 4/20/02
Re: Feeling better already. » paxvox2000 judy1 4/21/02
Re: Feeling better already. » DinahM judy1 4/21/02
Re: Feeling already. » judy1 DinahM 4/21/02
Re: Feeling alone DinahM 4/21/02
Re: I get so tired sometimes » DinahM Manda 4/21/02
Re: Feeling already. » DinahM judy1 4/22/02
Re: Feeling already. » judy1 DinahM 4/22/02

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