Posted by hmt on April 12, 2002, at 15:54:16
I've recently graduated from a university where I was seeing this counselor - C. I saw C for three years and she helped me through some really tough things and saw me through the depths of my depression. Since I graduated, I can't see C anymore. I had to leave.
It just really sucks. I miss her so much. Saying goodbye to her just hurts more than I ever thought possible.
When I was with her I really felt like she cared about me, and she even let me hug her at the end of our sessions. It felt so wonderful to be in her arms. This sounds kind of stupid, but I think that in my heart she came to represent the kind of mother I never had. I've cried myself to sleep many times wishing she could hold me again.
Of course I cognitively understand that, that's not possible. I've found a new counselor - J, and I've tried to talk to J about C, but she doesnt' seem to get it.
Has anyone else experienced this? Were C and I too close? I feel really abandoned, but I know that's not true.
I don't know. . .I'm just really sad, lonely and confused about the whole thing.
I'm just wondering if anyone else out there has been through this.
hmt
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