Posted by shelliR on April 4, 2002, at 21:07:17
In reply to WHY??????, posted by LiLi80 on April 4, 2002, at 0:53:25
Lili,
Basically, people are telling you to go into a hospital because they don't know what to say when you say you feel suicidal. They don't know how to help you. And you're right. Most hospitals suck.
There are are a few good ones and I was lucky about fifteen years ago to go in the right one. And I think it did really change my life.
Basically, in that hospital, as soon as you got there, the staff and then your therapist (very few
psych units even have therapists as well as Pdocs), asked you what you wanted to work on while you were in the hospital. I remember panicking and wanted to go home; that I was just a totally fucked-up person so how could I decide what to work on.But then it was really a revelation to me that that's what you do in therapy (in and outside the hospital). You decide what is wrong and how to make it better. And you do it in steps. And if you come unraveled, you have to ravel back up to start to work again. And it's very slow but if you know that you're going somewhere, it doesn't feel as bad. Same with meds: you make a plan and try things.
I'm not trying to make this sound easy. I've been in pain and suicidal for a week now because I thought my pain was never going to go away and I couldn't get hold of the medication that was helping me. But then someone gave me pain medication and hope again. But when I was on the right meds and working with the right therapist, I never wanted to die for more than a day or so at a time.
Anyway, don't mean to be like I did this...., but just wanted to throw out the idea of breaking things down.
all the best,
Shelli
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