Posted by zipnull on February 19, 2002, at 9:29:03
I've been on assorted SRIs and now Lamictal & Aricept have been added. The drugs are great - they keep me alive. But with the passing of each month I feel lower and lower. I'm beginning to wish I never got on the psychopharms in the first place.
After I began the psychopharms I had hope. However, it’s been 4 years and I’ve lost hope. I keep telling my shrink that I'm so tired of living this way (I'm really trying to tell her that I want to die). But, she just says that she is sure things will get better. I really like her, but I think medicine has done all that it can.
I'm so tired - I don't want to live. My brain is a piece of worthless fuzz and all I think about is how to die in a socially uncomplicated manner. I want out!!!
Will I ever snap out of this depression? I know that there is no answer. I don't know why I'm telling you this. Maybe its because I can talk to you and you will listen. On the other hand its not very socially responsible to talk about dying. Can't seem to get anything right. I see my shrink on Thursday – I’ll tell her again that I’m exhausted with life and see if she can help me. But I know what she’ll say.
-zipnull
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