we saw the dr., scary doesn't cover it

Posted by creature on February 1, 2002, at 23:33:17

update on Rick, my SO
wont know for sure until next wed when all test results are in, but its either
plasma cell leukemia or multiple Myeloma, both are forms of blood cancer, either way
he has to have chemo, also has to have 2 more infusions of blood in the
morning..just had 3 the other day
neither diagnosis is good, "The outlook for plasma cell leukemia is not good"
and for Myeloma "possibility that some treatments may bring complete remission"

I've lost too many ppl in my life, 3 deaths, a divorce, and the loss of my
mother (though alive she's not all there because of the brain tumor), my father
is dying too thats a mess because of what he did to me as child
ya know it's been one major catastrophe after another, each one topping the last
I am in no means exhatrting...(can't spell, i'm exhausted, i'm sobbing, and in
pain)
always hated Murphys law...fuck its true
i'm trying...I REALLY AM
fuck, Rick shouldnt have to worry about me now
he needs to focus on healing, he needs to lean on me
and Mom during all of this....that BITCH...told her she has to cancel her dentist appt today (only a teeth cleaning) because I needed to be with Rick
when he went to dr....she had a fit..it's my car, I should have it when I want
it (she can't drive any more)....not one word of, How is Rick holding up and how about you...then i just cracked up laughing
and today when we got the news...I spent most of the day with Rick and called her in the late afternoon, she berated me....where have you been all day! i lost
it,screamed at her, jesus mom ...Rick has a life threatning illness
then she calls me sister out of state who just got home from an operation and it's all, poor Ann...i love you so much, i wish i could be there to help
you, you're such a wonderful daughter, make sure you rest and eat well, you're recovery is the most important thing
so she is capable of empathy...just not with me...WTF is that. WTF
i'm the one who's taken care of her for 2 yrs now
she also told me that I won't be in her will....1/2 is going to Ann, the other
will be spilit up between my daughters
i cant lose another person that I love
i cant i canrt i cant
lynn

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