Posted by kazoo on January 19, 2002, at 4:08:21
In reply to Despair - haven't felt this for awhile..., posted by Krazy Kat on January 17, 2002, at 18:56:31
It's interesting how you use the word "despair" instead of depression. It's sort of an archaic word which I associate with the Middle Ages in Western Europe. Is it "hopelessness," "helplessness," what?
But I can identify with you, KK, in your despair as I am very much in situations which have been causing a great deal of despair in my life.
How does one get rid of this crap?
So if I'm handed over 2.7 million bucks, will that do it? Will that help? No, it will not. It has not. I have all the pain money can buy, and I don't want either.
So is a Seconal dirt nap in the cards? Yes, this is a very real eventuality with me. For the first time in my life, I'm thinking like a mad man. I have faced some horrible situations before, and never feared them, but I don't think I'm going to make it through this time. I don't want to. I'm tired.
Fear is the mind killer and I'm sick of it all.
What do I do? What do I do?
(a broken) kazoo
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