Posted by nightlight on December 30, 2001, at 14:16:08
Hi all
Sorry to yell, but I really need help. I am 45, have al;ways known s/t was 'wrong', but was not properly dx'd til this year. I have ADD, depression, anxiety disorder, a tad of OCD and some chronic pain problems (which are finally under control). The dep, etc is not under control, as yet, but improving.
Five yrs. ago I had my 1st child (surprise) at 40. Diagnosed w/3 hern'd discs & fibro. Mother got cancer, nursed her. She recuped partially, but dev'd Alzheimer's. Dad died last year . Hubby, daughter & I moved in w/Mom. I nursed her until her death late last April. I then, spiralled into a terrible depression. Worse than ever. Couldn't leave the sofa for hours on end, didn't bathe reg'ly, lost 25 lbs. No A-d's had ever worked for me. I was practically comatose w/grief & dep., plus a bad pain flare.
Finally got pain under control, found yet another therapist, who referred me to a p-doc who dx'd ADD & and rx'd Adderall and an A-D. I'm not out of the woods yet, but I have hope. I am working part-time (!) and can get out of bed every morning. But, I am FAR from recovered.Yesterday, hub tells me, he does not believe I am that ill, that this (+ grief) cd,. not make me so non-functional. And, after listening to 'excuses' for 5 yrs., he thinks my time is up. I have not progressed enough, I am not so sick, not really trying.
I want a book, or a website that explains what depression REALLY
does to someone, how incapacitating TRD really is.CAN ANYBODY HELP ME???
Thanks ever so much. He is not even speaking to me at the moment, since Xmas, 'cause I was very late to a get-together at his dad's. Said no explanation cd. be good enuf, not any more and that I had just married the wrong guy...
He may be right on target there.
TIA
nightlight
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