Posted by Mair on December 30, 2001, at 11:33:03
In reply to Re: Dinah - Are you ok? - Update, posted by Dinah on December 29, 2001, at 22:23:15
Dinah - I'm glad to see that the forgiving you is back. I know what you mean about being two different people. Somedays I manage tt get through all or at least a decent chunk of the day without even giving a passing thought to my mental health. Other days I just seem to carry on this exhausting running dialogue with myself where I am continually criticizing and analyzing every thing i say, do, or worst of all, think. I spent a couple of hours lying in bed this morning just thinking about how much I hate myself and how much I don't want to go in to see my therapist tomorrow with such a negative attitude. I feel like cancelling because i can't really imagine talking about anything I'm thinking, but I'm not the type of person to just not show up and I know i can't cancel without explaining some of this to her and she'd probably talk me into coming in anyway and I'd feel like my calling to begin with was an attention getting ploy. Just going seems like the path of least resistance no matter how fruitless a session it's likely to be. The aggravating thing is that in a couple of hours it's possible that i'll feel entirely differently.
I'm glad you enjoyed the holidays. I have a 2 and 1/2 year old nephew, and I just got such a kick out of watching him play with his new toys. It reminded me that when my kids were little, they never played with anything for very long, but they kept coming back to them over and over. I also remember marveling about how creative they could be about turning one thing into another. Like all of my sons trucks and cars could be vehicles, or they could be put in a circle to create the gates of a town. My husband used to refer to it as cannibalizing every toy into something else. Enjoy!!!
Mair
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