Posted by sar on December 10, 2001, at 10:52:32
hello, i'm very scared...
i've been couch-surfing for a couple of weeks after my mom & brother went physically aggro on me, a basic of my childhood but christ, i'm an "adult" (ha ha, whatevahs) now with bruises on my leg and had little bumps on my head. so moved in with friends who are v. nice but i must get back to my loved city of austin, and this past weekend i rented an efficiency apartment (at an outrageous price, as all hovels in austin are) and got a job as *lawd* a stripper and i just feel sick and scared. i lost all of my possesions in a housefire last year, so my apartment will be more of a crashpad. i lost most of my friends when i went crazy there last year--the onset of whatever mental jumblenss this is that requires 4 drugs and lots of black tea and cigs. luckily boyfriend and one girlfriend are there but this week i must rid myself of band of fat around my middle (beer ugh) and re-learn how to walk in stilettos (ouch). i've been so scared that i'm drinking too much and taking alot of klonopin. i feel like a baby rat. and it's cold outside.
poster:sar
thread:15296
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