Posted by Jane D on December 4, 2001, at 23:23:36
In reply to New Brain for Christmas, posted by pedr on December 4, 2001, at 3:05:32
> Hi,
> I've had major depression for 7 years and [like lots of people] am going through horrible times.
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> As xmas is approaching, I've been doing some hypothetical wishful thinking.
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> I've come to the conclusion that if someone were to give me a new, undepressed brain for christmas - complete with different memories, beliefs, habits, opinions - I would gratefully use it. This would horrify most people who don't suffer from depression I'm sure. But for me, it would be bliss - no depression.
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> I'm curious what others with depression think. I guess that some people are stubborn and even though they've suffered a lot, would never give up their memories, beliefs and personality. I suspect that others, like me, have had enough and just want out.
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> Whaddaya think?
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> Cheers,
> pedr.I've always thought that was the dividing line for me between being depressed and just being totally miserable. When I'm miserable I still want to hold on to my memories and everything else that is "me". When I'm depressed I would willingly trade it all in. I don't think it is because I hurt any more but rather that I stop placing much value on myself and my experiences.
Jane, sitting on the fence again.
poster:Jane D
thread:14860
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