Posted by dreamer on November 28, 2001, at 18:15:12
Emotional climate is dark keep trying to force myself
Today spent money on useless pap in the form of kids toys..a Gina doctor set complete with working check-up table, a male and female doc complete with syringe and stethoscope . I switched their clothes put them in naughty positions got bored.
Play putty to fiddle with -to reduce smoking , bubble blower , a plastic squid and snake and a spud gun-
my flate mate wasn't keen on being a target.
A bipolar friend is getting well-normalising and I fink my emails are too nonsensical so she aint replied.
So I sit fighting negetive thoughts cursing efexor for this heavy fatigue feeling sorry for myself thinking constantly of the big exit or using hard drugs.
Can't check myself in at the loony bin cause I would come out homeless pennyless and worse.
My pdoc is crap , where to get meds to xperiment with to be fixed before I get senile.
Moan moan moan.
Looking for pathways in this miserable labryinth only thing to do is stop these pills and get my energy back and probably .........time tells tick friggin tock , cuckoo.
I'm freaking my chickenz.dreamer doing post-moaning therapy.
poster:dreamer
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