Posted by juliedealer on November 25, 2001, at 8:33:42
In reply to Suicide, posted by Cass on November 23, 2001, at 23:57:55
Cass,
I related when you said you were afriad of being "old and alone", and I have to add, and end up a "bag lady". I had these thoughts turn over in my head the last couple of years. I have spent so many years, not caring for myself, not looking to my own future, I have not done the leg work to build some kind of foundation (emotional or financial) I've always thought, I won't live that long. I've been so tired of being the emotional cripple, who would have any interest in me, who could tolerate living with me and my habits? Who could put up with this self-involved, sef-serving narcisistic person i've become? But after working with my new pdoc and actually find a therapist that I like I am seeing a glimmer of hope.
For me suicide has always been "plan B", and sometimes "Plan A".
julie
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