Posted by susan C on September 28, 2001, at 21:13:46
In reply to Re: self harm, should I start again?, posted by Wendy B. on September 28, 2001, at 20:57:56
Dear Geek,
no.
meek mouse
susan C> geek,
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> please don't do any of the things you mention, i won't repeat them...
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> what have you done to get hold of and deal with the anger? i don't think drinking is better/worse than self-injury. i don't really have much experience with SI, but i did attend a new group therapy thing the other night, all women, and 2/3 were cutters. i was surprised to be put this group of women by my therapist, women who seemed to handle 'stress' by hurting themselves with knives or razors. maybe i handle my stress with equally self-injuring behaviors, they just don't show up on my skin, or in my blood-alcohol content.
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> substituting alcohol for cutting... i dunno. i can't seem to stand blood, especially my own, so i wouldn't do it. drugs i could do better than booze, nothing hard, just MJ. alcohol was never my thing. but i would say, if it's a matter of having a drink vs. stubbing a fag out in your arm, have the drink. but you need help, sweet thing. you need to talk to someone. you can't stay on the path of self-destruction forever. i would just like to offer my ear (or eye, to read) whenever you need it. can't remember your med and/or therapy regimen, remind me....
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> gonna go out, and have *one* drink, talk to you later??
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> wendy
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> > you son of a bastard, mother fucker from sodam and gommora, with gonorea and syphalis to boot(,) me up the ass. My soul is a wave, it comes and it laps the shores with its pestilent, black kisses. Right now I could kill, the anger is so pure.
> > Anyway 2 the point. I have kind of substituted drinking for self harm. Is this a good move (and dont tell the clean as a wistle, candy coted CLEAN, story. It does not apply). I have never stoped haviong the urge to plunge a razor or to put out the fag, in my arm. I just fight it. now I realise that stubbing ciggarettes out on your arm is veiwed as torture by most. so ,most would think that I ? torture ? myself. truth be told I torture more by not doing it.
> > but do I give in, it passes the time. Is it a step back?
> > MC
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