Posted by anna on August 28, 2001, at 23:26:49
Tonight was just awful. First of all, my meds are all screwed up right now and I am in an agitated state most of the time. I am bipolar II. My dh got mad at me tonight because I said to my almost 5 year old that I was going to beat her tail if she did not mind me and get up and go brush her teeth for bed, My dh had just gotten up and did not realize I had been fighting this strong willed child ALL NIGHT and was just damn TIRED OF IT. He said he was afraid I was going to damage our children.
This completely crushed me. I love my 3 children (ages 4, 3 and 1 ) with all my heart. We are supposed to go to the beach this weekend and I told him to go with the kids and I would just stay home or check into a treatment center. I feel like shit. I took 2 mg of Klonopin and just want to go to bed. Maybe they WOULD be better off with a better mother. I just don't think I can do this anymore!!!!! Someone tell me I am not alone!!!!!
Anna, having a HORRIBLE night (hubby left the house mad :*(
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