Posted by mgrueni on August 19, 2001, at 10:48:05
Not quite sure, how shall I put this....
Yesterday I posted in the "Why is it" thread, mentioning that I could use some cyber hugs.
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20010817/msgs/9852.html
Maybe it was a bit too indirectly, I just thought my *problem* would suit there best, because one of the topics of this thread was "worried about surgery".
This afternoon (well, here in germany it was afternoon) I popped in just to find that my post got totally ignored, whilst other threads were going on, which means it was not that no-one was here.
Well, I am aware of my current condition.....due to the last 6 weeks of constantly *pulling myself together* I feel a bad lack of energy, which probably makes me uncommonly sensitive. But even knowing that my feelings of disappointment and grief are unreasonable (it was just a post, I know) doesn`t change the way I feel. At the moment I am just fed up with being reasonable and so I give in and allow my (perhaps *foggy*) brain to produce thoughts like "Why is it that it`s ok for me to listen to others, but whenever *I* need someone to give me a simple hug, I get ignored? Am I not depressed *enough*? Is it because I am not on any medication, which would *proof* that I am not always able to manage everything on my own?"Silly thoughts, I know.... I just can`t help it at the moment.
A rather sad
Micha
poster:mgrueni
thread:9891
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20010817/msgs/9891.html