Posted by sar on August 19, 2001, at 3:25:07
In reply to Re: poetry and accidents » sar, posted by kid_A on August 16, 2001, at 19:48:31
> > i'm so sorry. what kind of club was it, was this regular dj'ing or electronica?
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> kind of a mixed thing, w/ electronic stuff some nights and one night of rock (punk/glam etc), that was my night, of course i went berzerk when i got the news, and wound up way-over-drinking and getting high, but by two days latter im happy to say that the same person who put me in there in the first place, re-put me back on a better night... unfortunately it directly competes w/ my friend (who's lagging night it is now)... so there could be some tension there...
i don't know, i just don't trust the club business. i've only worked in strip clubs but i would imagine a similar mentality exists in dance clubs.
> > clubs are fairly erratic. i hope you'll not let it get to you too much.
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> by the next day i was 'disapointed' but okay, ive been involved w/ clubs/bars in some way for a while, though its been a long time since ive had a residency, and even though ive been fired before, it doesnt seem to get easier to loose a dj gig...
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> >do you have any other job prospects? & you write too, don't you? do you freelance anything? (i respect your writing style bunches. i think you ought to give it a shot, if my opinion is worth anything.)
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> im a programer by trade, but a freelance designer at heart, im working on a corporate logo / compact disc design concept right now for a mass distribution downtempo cd, so im happy about that... im also planning some artwork of my own, and am in the process of writing a short book of poetry... btw, your opinion means a lot to me...
a computer programmer? i'm not up on computers so i don't i'm not up on the lingo of designer/programmer, if it even is for computers...what is a downtempo CD? i'm feeeling so unhip. i am like a cavegrrrl--not up on the new technology. 'bout 40 years behind my time. it does sound v. interesting though--i love the arts...> > i was once a cocktail waitress at a club and was fired for being too "softspoken." i didn't know you could get fired for having a soft voice...
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> maybe they thought you might be taken advantage of, there are some real jerks at the bar and some of our bartenders get pretty jaded, some are still pretty soft, it all depends on what kind of angle they work... i think some go for the cute-n-cuddley 'please tip me' game...well, i was 19 yrs old and had switched from stripping to cocktailing...really i think they didn't like it cuz the customers were like, "why aint she stripping anymore?"--which throws in the GUILT aspect to them--also, i really am softspoken and not particularly good at waiting tables, "upselling" etc--real BROADS they want as strip-club waitresses, the outspoken pushy type--and much as i love and respect broads, i am not one. tho i hope to one day be one. :)
i don't think they were worried about me being taken advantage of--it was more the implication of stripper-turned-dancer--because usually it's the other way around. so when one of their "dancers" started wearing clothes...plus, as i told you, i'm no broad.> >i hope you're not taking it too personally.
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> its a really strange situation, and the person who wanted me there still wants me there, and put me back, the people who really f'd me were some of the bartenders (ones that im not the closest too), because i think they were sick of not making money on mondays, but thats not my fault, i wasnt working there....so are you back? they should know from experience that any night befor thursday typically aint good...shit man, monday nights are the worst! and i've known some bartenders to be quite embittered. when i was fired, the main bartender had complained about my "softspokeness" and tendency to make minor mistakes. he really hated me. not to offend any bartenders out there, but the ones i've known have been assholes.
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> > please let us know how you are doing. & please try not to pass out anywhere but home! it's just not safe. you know that, i don't have to tell you, but...hey man, yr too classy to be passing out by cars anyway.
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> wow! i know, jesus, i dont even know what i was doing, lately ive been handling my alcohol well, but i think its the pot that really kills me if ive got a bit of a buzz on... im going to stay away from that... passing out in a parking garage is not good at all... i try to live a rock n roll life style, but thats way too 'vh1 behind the music' even for me :)
hey man, the rock n roll lifestyle is like, destroying a hotel room or buying champagne for a bunch of call girls. it's not passing out on asphalt. i've tried to justify my many similar experiences as the "rock n roll lifestle," but it just aint so. getting fuct up beyond any cognition is just getting too fuct up.. there's no rock n roll about it unless you're like, mick jagger, and even then you would end up on some embarrassing "behind the music" VH1 episode. live freely i say, don't worry, but hey, you're 30: you should know this shit--1) don't embarrass yourself 2) don't become helpless 3) pass out in a safe place.> > (i've passed out in a multitude of places--i'm not one to speak--but i am learning--i've made it to my home/bed 100% for the past 6 months or so--yay me!!)
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> ive been good lately, sometimes when your upset you want to obliterate yourself and what seems like a rational thing (to get really high after youve been drinking beer and done a few shots) is just totally stupid to begin with... hopefully (and i keep saying this), its a lesson ill be able to learn from...
oh yeah man, i know...i tend to become cocaine-amenable when i drink just because i know from too much experience that mixing pot + weed makes me sick..i dunno..have you heard of the "multifier effect"? i truly believe in it. druggie/drinker that i am, i won't and don't mix? why? cux its disgusting
> > what meds are you on, kid?
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> right now, primarily effexor/geodon... i take xanax during the day because the effexor still makes me feel wonky... at night i have been taking ambien, and rarely, remeron, just because it just totally wipes me out...good good, yr receiving help...
> knock on wood, things are back on track, and im lighting a few candles in thanks... there arent any promises in life, but im just going to try to make the most of what i got...
knocking on wood wright now (the desk). what kind of candles do you have? i've many suggestions re: candles.
> thanks again for understanding so well...i don't know if i do, but i hope so...i know the club lufe, funk that shite...you're daring to pursue it. i'm not made of the same suff.
drunken mini multiple hearts from space,
sar
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