Posted by susan C on August 10, 2001, at 12:58:59
In reply to Re: willow and Ted? » susan C, posted by Ted on August 10, 2001, at 11:35:18
Hi Tec,
My appts are 30 min med check up with pharmpdoc. I don't have a therapist and have so far, except for very beginnig, not found the need for talk therapy, nor has it been recommended. My train of thought on this 'poll' is perhaps generally applied to doctors, who tell you things regarding medications and how they work and the research on them, and expect you to remember and understand very technical things, that I for one, forget. And I am considered intelligent.
> Susan, I have a question for you: Would you videotape your wedding? Would you ever watch the videotape? OK, that's supposed to be happy memories. Would you videotape your divorce hearing? Would you ever watch the videotape? OK, that's sad/painful memories. The latter is usually why we are in therapy in the first place -- sad and painful memories -- and we don't want to be reminded of them. >
Yes, I think I agree on this one, I don't think I'd want a record of me sobbing and the doc sitting stone faced.
Wedding? I eloped.Tape the Divorce, probably, so I could be sure things were covered...
For a dr appt, I don't know, when I am like I am right now, spaced and confused, I don't remember what I just said, let a lone what some one else just said. I am paying for this advice and I think I would like to have a record of it.
BTW this is why I like this board, I can write read and edit.
>But, as I said, I think I would like a recording of what he says, explains about how different meds work and how different studies have explored different things and his insights as to why or what may be going on in my brain. Also to keep track of his advice, one pdoc kept focusing on the same thing and later I realized he wasn't reviewing my notes when he saw me...grrrr.
Maybe I am expecting too much of my pdoc. I am working each day to try and learn how the brain works, and what all the chemicals do. Perhaps what the particular chemicals are that are confused in my brain. Sometimes on the posts here there are people who are so articulate with medical research and chemistry issues I get literally dizzy trying to understand.
I think the understanding of my illness is a combination of things. One of those things is me understanding the terminology. I am not going to be a doctor, but I almost feel like I need to be to understand mine when he talks.
My dad was an MD. He told me of a research doc who made a major discovery. He couldn't reproduce the results. Finally, one day, he tried to retrace his steps exactly. The moment he slid the slide into his breast pocket to walk across the street for his usual coffee, he knew he had found the answer. He had incubated the culture in his pocket. He was then able to reproduce his results.
On one hand I feel defeated. On the other I refuse to give up. thanks for your candid replies.
-s
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