Posted by Kingfish on June 27, 2001, at 7:51:54
In reply to woah..., posted by sar on June 26, 2001, at 19:57:09
Ah! Sar, I don't know you at all, but this sounds so serious! I'm really glad they responded so well to you. To be honest, though, I wish I had done something of the sort when I was younger (I'm 30). Maybe folks will start taking your concerns a little more seriously now??!! Do you think that had anything to do with your doing it?
My husband once said that if I had ever just broken down and been hospitalized, he would have understood more. Great, so if I'd tried to commit suicide, people would have believed me?!
So, how are you now? I'd definitely say you sound Bipolar. You sound like me (or maybe all Texans are Flamboyant? ;) ).
Of course you know the advice most folks here would give - go to your pdoc, and tell her the story. This is a major one. And sometimes, it's tough to know how much you should include the alcohol, because they'll blame that, and "normal" people just don't do those sorts of things on alcohol (or roam around NY City all night alone, etc., etc.).
Repost for your friends here -I doubt they'd be checking this thread 'cause this is serious and they're going to want to know about it.
Take care and let everyone know how you are!!
- K.
P.S. Does sound like a pretty nice experience in the hospital, except what was with the comment about Borderline Disorder? I'd have had a few choice words for that guy!
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Friday night I got a little bit drunk and called the police to give me a ride to a mental hospital. EMS and 2 cops cars showed up, I was so embarrassed because I hadn't *done* anything, I just felt tired of being so damn suicidal all the time. I didn't need an EMS truck and 5 people shining flashlights into my eyes, yo. I just wanted a safe ride to a place I could go w/ no insurance and no money. They didn't understand that I was suicidal. I'm 23 and clean and decent looking and in my pajamas, just drunk. I felt happy to see them, I felt better. I flirted w/ the cop and asked him lots of questions about his job and his family, kept him laughing, felt it was the least I could do for wasting his time in such a large crime-ridden city on a Friday night.
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> They took me to a relatively swank hospital where I stayed prozax, xanaz, and Tripleman and hung out w/ the most wonderful people for 4 days. I didn't want to leave but I had to 'cos I can't pay their $900/day rate (!!!).
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> Diagnoses, man! The admitting doctor felt sure that I was bipolar, the "mixed state" kind. Another doc felt sure that I was only depressed--and get this yall--when I said i thought maybe I was borderline he said, "Half of all white girls qualify for borderline personality disorder" and suggested I stop this self-absorption and poetic histrionics.
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> Now I feel really confused, o should I maybe just toss these BPD books I've obtained? It seems like mental patients on the web take mental illness more seriously than some of the hardliner psychs I've seen (ahh...some want you to spending hours rehashing your "trauma" and talking of "guilt and shame" while others have the get-the-fuck-over-it attitude.)
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> what to think, what to think...?!
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> Nikki, if you're reading this, come to Texas if you want to be hosptitalized. (Wish that were possible, eh?!) Texas aint great for a lot of things, but they treated me right there--I'm sure I gained 5 lbs from the food and I still feel docile as a little lamb from all the xanax.
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> love,
> sar
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