Posted by mair on May 18, 2001, at 22:32:58
In reply to Today has been a bad day, posted by Mr.Scott on May 18, 2001, at 16:08:10
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> "But out of the question is the feeling I get,
> the guilt, the expense, and the shame it would net."
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> Mr Scott - I'm sorry things are so awful. I have always thought exactly like you about hospitalization. A few months ago, it looked like it was going to be a necessary step for me, and when i started accepting that it maybe was necessary, I was able to imagine it as a not so awful alternative. I was really helped by the posts of some people on this board who talked about how freeing it could be to be cared for, and to give up the pretense of trying to handle it in isolation, and on your own. Fortunately, I managed to pass some invisible hurdle and things started looking up enough for me to keep myself out of the hospital. A strong factor in my feeling better was an extraordinarily slight meds change. It shocked me to discover that there were things that could be done when I was so certain that nothing could make me feel better. All of this has been the source of some unsolicited discussions lately with my therapist. Now that I'm a bit more stable, she's going back over what happened. When people ar as depressed as you sound, it's especially hard to think or feel positively and it seems your realistic alternatives are few. For me there is also always a huge fatigue factor, and you do sound fatigued. If you can get some help and ride this storm a bit longer without hurting yourself, hopefully someone will help you see that you do have reasonable alternatives. Good luck and keep posting. Mair
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