Posted by Marie1 on April 16, 2001, at 20:18:03
In reply to Re: a question for anyone to answer, posted by stjames on April 16, 2001, at 13:55:21
My brother, at the tender age of 32, killed himself in 1997. He left a journal in his computer that left no doubt as to his state of mind or his determination to end the pain he felt everyday of his life. ALL of his family and friends were clueless. I, in particular, felt guilty because having been suffering depression for years, I thought I should have recognized that part of him. (Anyone who questions the genetic components of depression need only glance at my family tree!)
Anyway, my point here is that while my brother was, presumably, not in his "right mind" when he did the deed, he was in his "right mind" to carry on going to work everyday (as an engineer for a Fortune 500 company) and fool everyone into thinking he was as mentally balanced as anyone else. Suicide was his choice; he left his affairs in order and planned it to the last detail. After a lot of soul searching, I think he did the right thing for himself - not for me, or his other family, or his friends, but for himself. Yes, I'm sorry we lost him, but judging from the amount of pain he must have in, most of all I'm glad his suffering is ended.
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