Posted by dreamer on March 31, 2001, at 3:18:40
I happened to glance at the computer screen at my doctors office[the usuall visit for meds]My diagnosis said 'Recurrent major depressive episodes,unspecified'.
I have been told that i have a mood disorder that cycles rapidly and probably a personality disorder or cyclomia.This was said rather loosely by a psychiatric med consultant.Well,I guess either they don't know or are unmotivated to find out whats wrong with me.
I have asked alot of questions and seen a number of doctors since my teens but feel undiagnosed and not quite treated fully with meds.In UK the consultancy is rushed and they seem to dominate the conversation thinking that they know whats right and that you don't.I am much better and the cycling has slowed down but the depression comes without warning and when finished I always say to myself how lucky I am this time that I didn't end my life.
The other problem is outside I suffer with extreme irritation/anger with people and I often get verbally loud i feel so saddened by the general ambience of the world outside and it's as if i can read peoples thoughts all negetive and usually directed at me,but in my own home I'm ok.
I suppose I've lived so long like this that I've accepted this way of life but when reading other success stories and the compassion shown by docs good advice given by others I start to question again,am I really well and if not what can I do ?
Any advice,especially any American docs who help online that can help with someone from UK,would be great.
Wishing everyone happiness.
poster:dreamer
thread:5422
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