Posted by NikkiT2 on March 13, 2001, at 9:59:51
In reply to Feeling Really Bad..........., posted by tina on March 13, 2001, at 9:51:53
I've said this before Tna.. isn't it wierd...
I think you just "feel" normally, but when you know you have a pdoc appointment, you focus on it, and the other feelings get left to one side a bit... Try explaining this whole thing to her, how for one hour a week (or whatever) when you see her, you feel differently, but the rest of the time you have all this other crap going on.
Don't blame it all on yourself though. I know thngs are giong really well for you now, but theres still the past 6 months.. and whatever is happening now, those 6 months DID happen, ad you've still got them there in your head, nothing will make them just dissapear. I think you coped with the last 6 months remarkably, and maybe it's just all catching up with you now, and the self loathing is coming in as you haven't actually solved the problems that caused the problems (if this is making sense) you just tried to forget them.
I don't know hun, but I do think that you should ask your pdoc for some therapy of some kind, just to be able to file away everything that happened in a nice neat order, and not have all of the "notes" just flapping around.
Hope this makes sense hun...
Nikki xxx ((((hugs))))
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